Life is a paradox...

"What I am today?"

2009-04-08T06:40:00.000-07:00

I got fed up with all these exams and stuff in college.... :-(

Today, I had ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE exam and I didn't learn anything for the exam.

While I was outside the examination hall I was just wondering

"What I am gonna do for the next 3 hrs ?"

I really don't know what to do, so just got the question paper and checked out if I knew any answer for the questions and unfortunately I knew few answers and finished it off within 1 hour.

And I think one of the toughest job in the world is to sit idle and I have got to do it for the next 2hrs... this made me worry a lot :-(

But then I came up with some random thought, which made me think of "What I am today?".

And then I just came up with the poetry below... :-)

"What I am today?" I asked

And I doubt if I even know.

I'm grateful for the memories,

which remind's me of the past.

I've imagined many nightmares that never came true,

And I've seen them vanish at dawn.

But I've realized enough of my dreams,

to make me want to dream on to what i should be.

Without memories, I don't know who I'd be -

Because somewhere among the memories,

There are things that define me.

Is what I am today was my destiny ,

then I wish I'd change my destiny,

Because destiny is a matter of choice.

P.S - Even though I wrote few answers in the exam, there is no chance of passing in it.Because I have written only for 40 marks.. :-)

A rAiNy DaY.....

2008-10-24T10:38:00.001-07:00

Today was a very pleasant rainy day. It was drizzling from morning and i was just enjoying my semester study holidays. As usual i didn't study anything. I was taking a nap in the after noon and it was around 4.30 when i got call from my sis and she told me that her cycle tyre got punctured and she wanted me to come and pick her up in school. I just said ok and it was raining heavily outside.

It would nearly take 10 to15 min to reach her school usually and due to this rain it would take 20 min but if there is water logging problem near the AGS colony[i got to cross this area if i have to get to her school] i cant even reach the school. I have been thinking this for few min and then i checked out my tyres in my bike.

Unfortunately one of the tyres in my bike has also been punctured and i don't know what to do at all. I was not able to think anything for few min and then i took my bike to the near by mechanic shop. And the mechanic who was in that shop told me that he would get the tyres fixed only when the rain gets stopped, I don't know what the hell he was talking it has been raining for the past 3 hrs and it would even continue for the next few hours. I told him this and he again started saying that he would not fix it unless the rain stops.

And then i went to another shop which was near by and the mechanic who was there in that shop told me that he gonna close the shop within few min.

Nothing could get worst than this and again when to the previous shop and told him to get my tyres fixed as soon as possible and then i got back home.

I informed my mom and then thought of taking an auto but i could not even find a single auto at all. I waited for around 20 min and then an auto came but when i told him that i got to cross that AGS colony he said there is water logging in that area and cannot cross that in auto and all.

And then i returned back to that mechanic shop and he told me that he had fixed the tyres but i didn't have my bike key with me so again i returned back to my home to get the keys. When i started from my home it was around 6.00 and it was still raining.

And when i reached that AGS colony the water level was nearly 3 feet high from the road, i managed to cross the that area but as soon as i crossed it my bike got stopped running and nearly after 5 min it started again and when i reached the school the time was around 6.40.

And while i was returning through that AGS colony my bike stopped running and i was not able to start again,i got to walk back home. I went back to that mechanic shop and left my bike to get repaired and walked to my home. When i returned home the time was around 7.30.

I would enjoy rain if it was any other day but not on these semester study holidays. Even though i am not gonna do anything useful in these days but due to these rains lots of plans gets spoiled and i could not go any where, just got to sit in home and nothing could be boring like this.

Due to these incidents a pleasant rainy day as become a very miserable day in my life and i hope nothing like this would happen again in my semester holdays.

A jOuRnEy.....

2008-10-16T11:22:00.001-07:00

Today was another miserable day in my life. I had my networking semester practical exam today and again i didn't get output for the program which i got. I didn't get output even in my previous exam so i doesn't feel much bad. I finished my exam at 12.30 and boarded my college bus around 12.40pm so, i could come home earlier. But the whole thing was shattered after few minutes.

It hardly takes around 30 minutes to reach tambaram from my college and from there i got to board another bus to reach my home and it would take another 30 min. so, to the maximum i could reach my home at 2.00pm. But today i reached my home only at 3.30pm.

Coming back to boarding my college bus, the bus started from my college and within few min it came to an halt, at first i thought it was just some traffic problem and was just sitting in my bus itself. But actually what happened was the bus which started just few minutes before my bus has been got struck in the mud and it was not able to come out at all. And there is no other route to reach tambaram from my college.

I was just sitting in my bus for few min and then got out from my bus and just checked out whether they are trying to get the bus out or not. After few minutes a tractor came and they just tried to pull the bus from behind using it. At last it has been got out and now the time was around 1.40.
When i reached tambaram it was 2.10. As soon as i reached tambaram i got bus to my home immediately and i thought this might be my luck but actually it was my fate.

What happened was the tyre of the bus which i boarded got punctured after few min. Nothing could happen worst than this. And now i got to board another bus. As it was lunch time there was no sign of a bus at all.

I just waited for long time and at last i boarded another bus around 2.40 and the bus which i boarded was damn slow and it took nearly 40 min to reach my home.

And when i reached my home it was 3.30pm. No other day was worst than this and i felt very exhausted. I got my another semester practical exam tomorrow and i hope atleast in that i would do better than the previous exams.

LuCk Vs HaRdWoRk....

2008-10-13T09:36:00.001-07:00

Luck and Hard work plays an important role in everybody's life and both can change the path of the life.

Luck is something which science have not proved yet but hard work pays you and you don't need science to prove that. Hard work puts cause and effect into motion. Once you have experienced the effects and rewards of hard work, luck willingly climbs aboard.

And i am a strong believer of hard work and i don't believe in luck at all since luck is a chance happening, as that which is beyond the control of a person. And i always believe that destiny is in our hand, we can change our destiny positively by working hard and negatively by not working hard.

Today i had my microprocessor semester practical exam for which i got to study around 30 experiments and i just studied only 29 and i just left only one experiment without studying. I just thought i would have some luck and wouldn't get that experiment and even the probability of getting that experiment was very less.

But unfortunately when i took my question paper in hand i had that experiment and i don't know whether that was my luck or not. I was just sitting idle for the first one hour without knowing what to do . I also got another experiment to complete which was a damn easy one so completed that thing in few minutes and was just thinking about the experiment which i doestn't know . At last 3hrs got over and i have not completed my experiment then i just got some extra time and tried to complete but that microprocessor didn't show the answer what i expected. And i just got partial output for that experiment and this was the first time i am getting partial output for the semester practical exam. Nothing could be worst than this. This itself can prove that luck is not every thing in life and its just a thing which is left over after giving 100% of hard work.

So luck is not something which is by birth with a person, i mean it is an individual who makes his LUCK.

L..labour

U..under

C..correct

K..knowledge

So, if you work hard luck will kick in. The nice thing about hard work is that it's universal. It doesn't matter what industry you're in hard work can be used to achieve positive long-term results regardless of the specifics.

Quote:
The big secret in life is that there is no big secret. Whatever your goal, you can get there if you are willing to work hard.

My LoVe

2008-09-27T09:17:00.001-07:00

My love, you are strong
And you will excel in this abstruse world
Just have faith ur self & face the life
with smile, As the days pass by
Things will surely change one day
On that day world will be a paradise
You will be among the admirable few
And you will find a solution for your hardwork
So, in closing my love
Life is a dream, realize it.......

I have come up with another one and i think this is better than the previous thing.

LONELINESS.....

2008-09-17T07:51:00.000-07:00

Even though I had lot of works to do other than writing this post I just felt it is to be somewhat important since "loneliness" plays an important role in everybody's life. And it also plays an eminent role in my life.

Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Lonely people often feel empty or hollow inside.

You can feel lonely:

* when you are alone
* when you do not feel part of a group or event
* when there is no one with whom to share your feelings and experiences
* when you feel disconnected and alienated from your surroundings
* when there is no-one to know how miserable and isolated you feel.

Loneliness can make you feel some or all of the following:

* I feel that no one cares about me
* I feel that people only like me as long as I am of use to them
* I feel that no one understands me
* I feel I cannot connect to others
* I feel that "everyone else" has friends
* I sometimes feel sad and empty
* I may engage in self-destructive behaviors
* I feel that I am unloved and unwanted

"Loneliness is the worst pain in this world"
Somewhere there in this world of ours for one lone soul another lonely soul, each choosing each through all the weary hours, and meeting strangely at one sudden goal, then blend they, like green leaves with golden flowers, into one beautiful and perfect whole; And life's long night is ended, and the way lies open onward to eternal day.

Sometimes some people drain me, even the closest of friends, and I find loneliness to be the best state in the union to live in.

Who knows what true loneliness is -- not the conventional word, but evident terror? To the lonely themselves it wears a mask. The most miserable outcast hugs some memory or some illusion. Now and then a fatal conjunction of events may lift the veil for an instant. For an instant only. No human being could bear a steady view of moral solitude without going mad.
We can even be alone but never ever feel lonely, it is the worst pain in this world.

My favourite quotes:

"The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself"
-Mark Twain
The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved.
-Mother Teresa

RULES......

2008-09-13T11:45:00.000-07:00

What are rules for anyway?

Rules replace thought.If you know the rules,you always know what to do.

Rules are comfortable.If you know the rules, you never have to stretch too far.

Rules are safe.You probably won’t get fired for following the rules.

Unfortunately, you probably won’t make much progress either.

Rules work when the rate of change is slow enough that they can be adjusted before they are irrelevant.

Can you think of some irrelevant rules...?

Worse than irrelevant, what rules are getting in the way of your success....?

Ask someone about those rules.

If you can’t find any meaning in them – ignore them.

Do what you think is right - what will make you more successful.

Forget the stupid rules!

THINK!!!

When i started thinking about rules i am able to remember an incident which took place while i was in 1st year of my college life. What actually happened was...

Mr.Sudha took electrical engineering for me in 1st yr and before that let me tell u about Mr.Sudha.He is a nice guy, who wants to be perfect in everything and due to this most of the people doesn't like him. And he is a very rigorous person.What happened in one of his periods was he suddenly asked

"Why RULES are made...?"

students:"RULES are made to follow"

then Mr.Sudha started giggling. Nobody expected this and due to this each and every student in the class was blinking like as though they have seen something which they haven't seen in their life time at all. But that is the truth we had never seen him laughing till that time.

Then he said "RULES are made to be broken so never follow a rule".

But in certain things we need rules else life would be boring and if it is broken then life would be more prettier than before.

If there is no rules and everybody can live as though they want then life would not be much interesting. so make a rule in your life that you don't follow any rule.

In life without rules nothing can exist and everybody follows a rule.

KeEp MoViNg FoRwArD

2008-08-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

When you don't have any friends,
When there is nobody to share your thoughts,
When you don't have anyone to appreciate you,
When there is nobody to understand you,
Tell yourself - this is life KEEP MOVING FORWARD!

When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom,
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air
Tell yourself - this is life KEEP MOVING FORWARD!

This is my first poetry and i just thought something and have come up with something.

I hope i would be able to write something better than this in future.

INDELIBLE MEMORIES OF "300"

2008-08-07T08:07:00.000-07:00

Today in my college we were just planning to go for a movie on next weekend in satyam. Around 20 boys decided to go for the movie, suddenly my friend Mr.P started laughing so i just asked him "what is there to laugh in this"

he said "i just thought what happened when we went for the movie 300 in satyam so, i could not resist laughing.."

That was one of my unforgettable day in my life and i wont forget forever.So that happened nearly 20 months before.

I was in my first year of my college and we decided to go for a movie and we decided that we should watch it only in satyam. It was nearly after two weeks after the release of the movie "300" so we thought we could go and buy the tickets directly.That was one fine sunday morning we entered satyam complex and the show scheduled for 11.30AM was full, so some of my frenz said better we go for a tamil movie so from satyam we went to DEVI complex .Unfortunately tickets was available only for some of the worst movies in tamil, i don't remember the movie name but the heroes name is similar to my friend name, only because of him this day became an unforgettable day in my life and i should complement him atleast for doing this.

So,coming back to DEVI complex we guys decided to go to satyam again and buy the tickets for the movie 300 for 3.00PM show. When we walked out of the devi complex it was around 12.30pm since we didn't even had our breakfast we felt very hungry, so we had lunch in a nearby hotel and from there we went to satyam and bought tickets and the time was around 2.00pm nearly one hour was more for the show.

So, we guys decided to go to spencer plaza and this was our worst decision made on that day.

Here starts our miserable story we went to music world in spencers and we were surfing through the audio cassettes.We just came out of the store and was walking on the corridor suddenly the security in music world came running towards us and grabbed one guy from our gang and started taking him to the store again.we guys were just blinking and we doesn't know what had happened at all then the security took a cassette from the persons packet whom he caught. Only then we realized what had happened and we don't know what to do at all we just went with him and they took us inside a room and the manager of the store was inside.

Then he started blabbering some nonsense and the best part was he was holding his mobile in his hand and he told us that

"you guys just check out this number in my mobile, this is SP[senior police] number i will call him and handover u guys to him" only after this everybody started fearing then we said

"we will pay fine and we are not the person who u think, just leave us and we won't do this again"

And then we paid a fine of 500Rs and that idiot gave some carnatic and telugu audio cassettes worth of Rs 500. And i must thank Mr.B again because we guys were left with just 100Rs after buying the tickets but Mr.B had ATM card with which we were able to withdraw money and we paid that fine. Even now i cant imagine what would have happened if we were not able to pay the money at that time. After that we paid the fine and got that cassettes and got out of that plaza with relief.

And the story doesn't end here it goes on like this, when we got out of the plaza the time was around 3.45PM so we decided to watch the movie and went to satyam and while we are entering the theatre they didn't allow Mr.P they asked his college ID card for age proof, as usual he wasn't having it then Mr.P took out his school ID card and showed them and he told that he finished the school last year and i don't know why this guy have his school ID card even after getting into college.

The best part is that when we took our seats and looked on the screen,what we saw was the interval sign on the screen.

I think we will be the only persons to watch a movie in theatre from the interval part. And the movie was too good and it got finished within half an hour. Everybody felt very bad on that day but that day had left lot of memories in our minds and even now when we go to satyam or music world we will remember this and would have lot of fun.

Quote:
In all my life...
I have learned only one Thing about life..

IT GOES ON...................

A START WITHOUT A REASON...

2008-08-01T09:53:00.000-07:00

To start with.. this is going to be my first post in my blog but to tell the truth i created this blog nearly a month ago and only now i have got time to write. when i created this blog i doesn't even know why i created this blog but have been thinking about some of the things in my life and i just found that there are lot of things going on in my life which doesn't have any explanation to my life and it is happening to me alone without any reason, so i just thought of posting some of the unforgettable days in my life and there will be lot of fun involved in that.

And there is no reason why i have chosen the name as "inexplicable life" but i think there is a reason which i couldn't tell now..
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one of my favourite quote:
"Life is a mystery to be lived not a problem to be solved"